Monday, May 25, 2020

Results update

Morning folks, I hope you're all doing well this afternoon.

Just thought I would share a results update with you and also give you a bit more detail on everything.

Since last night, my mood has taken a real big tank and I think I know why. During Honey and I's training session yesterday evening, I ended up pushing us both too far and fell back into bad habits.

Don't get me wrong, we had a brilliant training session last night.... Until we didn't.

Honey and I spent a lot of time doing more difficult retrieves, as well as Honey doing a"proper" successful blind. So what went wrong?

Yesterday I received some feedback from various people about Honey's heelwork, her heelwork isn't bad by any means, but I received a few very helpful pointers from various people (including a gun dog judge) and found that I became HYPER focused on Honey's heelwork. This meant that I became very strict with Honey and I ended up using force. Ugh.

What happened?

Well, I wanted Honey to speed up her heel as she was lagging behind, so I ended up using her collar to keep her in position, something which she found extremely aversive.

Thing is, her heelwork was pretty much perfect up until we started heading home, and I think she only started lagging behind because she was tired. But like I said, I became hyper focused on her heel, which meant I didn't even consider this until later on. Again. Ugh.

So, now I have spent most of last night and this morning feeling like crap. Which means my typical ways of coping with this (plucking my bodily hair, spending money and comfort eating) have been a bit more prevalent. I spent £200 last night and ate more last night than I have done all week. Triple ugh.

There are some positives, though.

Firstly, I have not held any sort of "grudge" towards Honey. Before I became a crossover trainer, whenever I would use aversives before, I found that I would hold onto those negative emotions for hours, sometimes days, before I felt OK again. Because of this, my relationship with Honey would continue to deteriorate as these negative feelings would be associated with her, which meant I would also take them out on her.

This time, I am still feeling all those negative emotions, but I am doing my best to not associate them with her or take them out on her. We had really nice cuddles this morning, which is a huge indication that my mindset is changing.

THIS is exactly why I started the project, though. To become more self aware, and I definitely think it is helping. I am 100% convinced that my mood last night and today is due to the use of force during our training yesterday. Until then, everything was fine. At least from what I remember.

Regardless, today is a day for some self care and "me" time. Much like I normally would reset Honey when she gets something wrong during our training, I need to now reset myself so I can come back to it with a fresher, more positive mindset.

The use of positive reinforcement for dog training is not just about the dog. It's about so much more than that, something that I am beginning to realise in moments like this.


Results below:



DETAILS

Date
Did I train?
Notes
21/05/2020
Y

22/05/2020
Y

23/05/2020
Y

24/05/2020
Y
Pushed myself and Honey too far – some use of force applied
25/05/2020


26/05/2020


27/05/2020


28/05/2020


29/05/2020


30/05/2020


31/05/2020



SUBJECTIVE HAPPINESS SCALE (SHS) TRACKING

Date
Time?
Question 1
Question 2
Question 3
Question 4 (MUST be a negative number) 
Total
24/05/2020
14:13
5
5
4
-4
10
24/05/2020
17:09
6
6
5
-4
13
25/05/2020
01:26
4
4
3
-5
6
25/05/2020
13:20
4
4
3
-4
7








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