Tuesday, May 12, 2020

Today's results and another possible culprit?

*Trigger warning: Talk of menstruation and birth control*

Both of today's results have been extremely low. To be completely honest, today hasn't been a great day for me, but I think I may know why.

Hormones.

I have noticed that my mood typically drops when I finish my contraceptive pill pack. Then I have 7 days off. Then back to taking them again. Normally, I am fine when I start a new pack.

So, I'm gonna have a little bit more of a think on it all, but I think I am in this project for the long haul now. So I'm sure adding another little variable won't hurt too much.

I mean, that's what science is, right? Figuring stuff out. Except in this case, that "stuff" is me.

Huh.

This morning...

Just tracked my happiness for the project, and it's VERY low this morning. Like, really low.

However, there are definitely external factors for this.

I won't go into too much detail, but long story, short, I met someone last year that I've had a bit of a minor issue with for a while now. This person hasn't done anything to me personally, but I just really don't like their vibe. I also think they're quite fake and pretentious.

Regardless, I've been trying to separate myself from this person, but it's becoming increasingly difficult since we have a lot of the same interests and influences. Because of this reason, it's also harder to just cut them off.

So now I'm at an impasse.

Maybe I should add another variable into the project based on whether I see anything related to this person or not? I think that would produce some very interesting results lol. I would definitely hypothesise a drop in my mood whenever I did see anything related to them. Again, lol.

Either way, documenting my thoughts will be helpful for the project, because I can cross reference any of my blog posts to a particular day in the project and identify any other factors that may have been going on.

Self awareness through science, bitch!

- Ce xoxo